Dreams and Disenchantment

The same mind-my mind in the span of 15 minutes,sparks a new idea plays out the perfect options as if the world was aligned and then disproves it all. Turning the spark ignited fury of flames into smoking travesty of embers.
Self deprecating demons leave half dead dreams on every doorstep to a new dream,reminding me of self failures, everlasting in my mind. Each half dead dream telling me I should try again while the demons just say "look at the mess you leave in your wake". Self worth has been banished from afar it tries to stoke the coals of dreams. Shiny dreams spark wars with the self destructive demons, if they even survive the battle scars to great to keep fighting.
The fight is hard to win when most of the time you don't believe your existence is worth fighting for.